I Love(Hate) Monday

Today is my out of office day and since it is at the middle of the month, I decided not to go anywhere. By knowing a darn boring person like me, I ended waking up early (actually after a sudden shock from my sleep because I thought I’m on my shift) and browsing through the facebook, commenting and posting nonsense stuff plus few conversation with my friend and family via YM! and phone. My mom called me earlier and we had a short talk before I ended up asking to loan her money. Gosh! It’s totally embarrassing.

From her voice, I can sense she’s smiling at me. But I also can sense a bit disappointment through her voice as well. For a first son which is already 27 years old, it just shouldn’t be like this. It’s supposed to be my payback time to my mom and dad for all of the sacrifices since I was born. Mom, forgive me for being this way. I know I’ve a good pay but please do give me some time to clear all of my debt. She ended up the call, promising that I’ll have the money by the end of the day, which actually took her less than one hour.

Speaking about conversation, there’s one actually that a bit funny but thought me a lot. Therefore, I then realized that learning process will never end and also I learned that do expect the unexpected. A good friend of mine posted something which he called a ‘cheerful’ or cloudless campaign which makes me actually questioning what the hell is going on. I replied nicely (might be a little sarcastic) and he replied nicely (which is more sarcastic) and the sweet conversation just now almost ended up with a fighting.

He was saying;

ceriakan diri anda walupun hakikatnya diri anda x seceria mana..kerana, org lain akan turut ceria dengan semangat yg anda bawa ke mana-mana!!! than, anda akan terceria sama di sini dan sana….hahahahahahahahaha (dlm maksud neyh)

and my replied;

motipppp? nak kena hencap ke nihh? ekekeke

Might be it’s not a verbal conversation, he just being so serious and he didn’t realized that I’m in a middle of joking. He replied me with asking what is ‘hencap‘ which i did honestly explained the meaning plus a bit nasty words which actually lead to a so-called-good conversation; which most of it is embarrassing me. The conversation then become like this;

him : org yg mengutuk mmg org trkutuk! amalkn lah yer..selamat bramal

me : yg dikutuk pon tak smestinya layak utk dpt pujian ye tak? ekeke..

him : puji untuk yg ikhlas, kelayakan hanya Allah yg nilai…yg baik dtg dariNya, dan yg buruk..semestinya dr manusia…hehehehee

me : selayaknya..

him : jd jgn suka mengutuk tau! hehehe

What daa faaaaa.. Bullshit! Immediately I stop replying. I tried to be rational as I can (actually, I’m practicing the skill of anger management which I’ve learn on a so-called-training conducted by my office few month back.. yeah right!). I text-ed my friend but there’s no answer which actually ended with screaming to another friend. And what I get, a very big and loud laugh.

I decided to read the conversation again and again, trying to spot, digging where did it started went wrong. Am I the one who started it? Is it because of my words of hencap? Or is it because of my definition on hencap? I gave up, with a mumble on my mouth, cursing my self to the dissatisfaction plus the sudden embarrassment. I’m stunned on my bed. Speechless.

Luckily, this conversation happened today and not two or three years ago. What if I didn’t reply with ‘selayaknya’ and continuing being more sarcastic? Where do you think this conversation lead to? Will I ended up still talking with this guy when I bump with him in the middle of friend gathering and just pretending that this thing is actually never happened?

Thank God that there’s a bit of respect not for him but with someone else which stop me from being me.

This kind of stuff is a reminder (I keep on saying that.. again and again)  for me. Being part of the society wasn’t that easy as saying ‘hi’ to someone as starter to a new friendship or relationship, especially for some one like me it might take ages or might be never start. So, do remember, doesn’t matter if you have a blonde or black, brown hair or what so ever, eat what ever stuff that you like; easier to say, how different you’re, I’ll never can able to read on your mind or understand on your feeling. Neither do you, you’ll never understand me nor say that you know me. You might be laugh on my joke, smile on my stupidity but yet in the end it’s all about self satisfaction.

You can say anything about me, yet silence is my answer as lion will never answer dog barking.

Peace out!